My nipple ripped off

I want to share my experience when i'm ripped off my nipple. I do nipple torture since im 18. That was my first needle pierced through my nipple. I saw many nipple torture way in internet. And now, i really have interest to nipple pain. Back to the story. In that time, i was seing a big nail in the store, so I buy it. When I'm home, I wonder how it feels when this big nail got through my nipple. So I pushed the nail, and pierce it through my nipple. It hurts a lot but I really love it! I don't feel satisfies enough, so I take 3 needles, and start to Pierce them. That was a really satisfied moment. I keep pulled it and enjoyed the pain. When I feel. Than I take off the needles, and left the nail. I clamp it and it hurts more! I can't hold it. I cum without touching my penis. And after that, I see big holes in my nipple. Really love that. If you know, I never let my nipple have rest. I almost torture it everyday. And the holes never get closed. Than, one day I see a chopsticks, that it's getting bigger till the end of it. My nipple got really hard! I wanna put them in. I take that chopstick, sterilized it with alcohol and push it through the hole. I know, it's bigger than my nipple. But I don't care, I love the pain sensation! I keep pushing it and didn't realize that it was tearing my nipple in half. I felt so panicked and in pain. my heart was pounding really fast. I kept looking at my broken nipples. I turned off the camera. I see the blood flowing down so hard. So i started picking up a sewing needle, and sewing on my own nipples. It's so hurt! I can only last until the 8th stitch, and don't continue it anymore. I bandaged my nipple and hoped it would heal. Yet I can't stand it without torturing my nipples. Eventually my nipples never healed And left tear marks. Sometimes i regret it. I feel shame to be shirtless in public. I can't do weightlifting with my nipple anymore. But nevermind. I can still doing nipple torture with needles, nails and many way more. Even i think it looks sexier than before.